Friday, February 18, 2011

羞耻心

我觉得很羞耻!!真的真的很羞耻...

你们的所作所为让我觉得很难去面对我的朋友....
为什么你们非得把自己搞成这样才高兴?
为什么你们在做决定时或做某些事情时不为自己的家人想想?
你们知道吗?你们的杰作会弄到多少人担惊受怕? 你们不懂!!
我....就是因为有自知之明所以才会觉得很羞耻!!

是否要到了真的面对很重大的惩罚时你们才会觉醒?是否要把自己弄到全身都受伤是才甘愿? 是否要到了家破人亡的地步才愿意收手,才愿意改过自新?

在我听见我的朋友对我说出那番话时....我真的觉得晴天霹雳!!我真的接受不了!!
我真的真的很希望你们能够知错....因为你们真的错的太离谱了!!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Bye 2010, and welcome 2011

There is another 24hours+ will be the new year for me, the 2011!! Time passed very fast and what have we done in the whole year?! Wasting time or learned something?!

For me, I'm seriously learned a lots throughout the year. From beginning of 2010, I have found out that I g0t nothing... Everyday college, shopping, helping parents or stay at home.

But in mid of the year, I had found a job and went to work as part-timer for the event job. Of course not those high pay job, but the salary still acceptable!! The job scope was selling the Vitamin which produced in Japan and we need to target the kids and ladies!! By the way, I also learned somethings from there such as the communication skill, and culture. Due to the job needed, so I have to outstation always such as Kuantan, Mentakab, and Johor. Most of the time was being at Johor because there are too many areas over there.

During the outstation at Johor, I meet new friends too!! There are two friends who came from Taiwan and having there internship in Malaysia. Both of them are funny and we still keep contact now. It is a good thing to meet up more friends that came from other countries.

I also went to Taiwan during end of October during the year. My sister has sponsored me the air ticket, dad sponsored the travel fees and mom helped to pay the hotel fees!! So, overall I was only contributed few hundred bucks for the trip....It's so thankful to my family who are loving me so much!! Anyway, I am missing Taiwan a lots....the foods, the weather, and of course all those shoes, cosmetics, skin care, bags and clothes!! It is superb cheap + good quality. I wish i will be there as soon as possible!!!

After being about 4 years single lady, i had finally found someone who is really loving me, pamper me, and concern me always. Sometimes, he might not good enough, we argued and of course we are not fighting, but as long as he is still loving me, i know we can be a so called 'long lasting' couple. He is not rich, and no one say girl must get a rich boyfriend, right?! Even sometimes, i need to pay for our date, but i still willing to do so because this only considered as 'fair world' between male and female.
After started meet up with YOU, is my life being wonderful? Or remain the same? I would like to say: "It is totally different lifestyle!!" While starting in a relationship, I was not used to it. After awhile, we getting know each other more, we know what we want, then we are sweet!! (I know people will feel that I'm showing off, but i just expressing my feeling that having such a good boyfriend.)

Next, my internship in Dutch Lady. Although it is only 1 and the half month intern period in the company, but i learned a lots too no matter is from the accounting area, or social. Due to my boss, so called the manager in the company, is a good guy, he was teaching me many many things even though i always did something wrong. He always said:' I'm not expect much from you, but try your best to do and learn during the intern. You can gain your experience here.' The company has giving us many benefits and there is no point to mention here, but the thing I wanted to highlight is I am really thanks to my boss, Mr Alan for teaching me so many things and extra knowledge in the commercial world, thanks to William who is a consultant from E&Y that also 'transferring' the knowledge about accounting for me, and my big boss, the department head who is really caring me although I'm not really active in the office and always treat us for a dinner.

I think there will be a chance to work in Dutch Lady again.... It might be next year, 1st of the month because of my boss is really needed an executive to helping him although I lack of the experience and knowledge in internal auditing, but i still can help to do the admin work!!^^

At last, my wishes for the coming next year, the 2011!!!
1. I hope my parents do well always especially my father who work so hard nowadays!! Hope he is really taking good care of himself.
2. I hope my brothers, the eldest and youngest will be more mature and positive thinking for the rest of their life.
3. I definitely hope my grandma, my beloved po po, doing well because I love the foods you cook and of course not only this reason!! No words to describe how much I love you.
4. I will be starting to do the final year project next semester (Jan 2011) onwards, so I strongly hope the progress will be works smoothly as what I expected.
5. And, the one that can't forget to wish is my niece, my cutest niece....Wish she grow up healthy, being a good girl in the future and study smart always although still g0t long long way to go...=)
6. After all the wishes for my family and academic, its the time for my romantic stuff!! I know I'm not young anymore, so I wish this relationship can last longer and if YOU are good, I hope we can have future.
7. Besides that, I also hope YOU being healthy always... Do continue love me and pamper me regardless I have did something wrong and of course not those serious mistake!! And, also hope YOU can g0t your job faster after the Chinese New Year. But one thing wanna express here... YOU are kinda stupid because of rejected an offer from an interior design company during your final exhibition!!! It is not easily to get job nowadays...but as long as you happy!! I will support you always no matter what....
8. Of course I can't forget about my buddies in the college and outside. I hope those who are studying can get a very good result, it's better to get distinction, wish those who are working can always get high pay, wish those who still single and available meet their Mr and Miss Right as soon as possible. Of course also hope those who are in relationship continue sweet sweet with their boy boy or girl girl.
9. For myself, my own selves benefit, I wish i can travel to Taiwan once again in 2011 because I am really missing there so very very much!! This time, wish to go with YOU but I know it kinda difficult for both of us. Therefore, near near also acceptable such as Thailand. Or, I can don't be so greedy, local also acceptable as long as can travel.
10. I wish I can go attend the dance or yoga class. Due to I keep on eating recently, I had gained fats and weight!! In order to maintain my body line or body figure, I must spend money to attend those classes.

This all about for year 2010 and the wishes for 2011. I hope during end of the year in 2011, I may accomplish the wishes and hope majority of the wishes will come true.

其实我都知道

你是对的!!
为了一点点小事情而生气你是我的错....
可是你的言语是真的伤害到我了...
就算我了解你是在开玩笑的....
但是我也还是会伤心的!!
最近我发现了些事情...
我越是紧张你.....
我就越在乎你对我说话的方式...
有时候不是我要对你发脾气....
而是我真的真的控制不了自己!!!
虽然你一次又一次的纵容我,
可是我懂你是在压抑着....

太多事情发生在我们两个之间...
但是我很有信心对我们的影响不大的!!
只要你还是爱着我的....
当然我也一样!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

是亮红灯了吗

从台湾旅行回来也有大约一个星期多了....
还记得在台湾的那五天,我是多么的想念你!!
当然我也很清楚你也和我一样的思念着我....
除了回来的当天之外,我们似乎每天都闹得不愉快的...
一点点的小东西小事情足以让我们吵上大半天!!
是什么问题呢?
我越来越野蛮了还是他顶不顺我了呢?
头脑都一片空白的....
每天都在思考着同样的问题可是却找不到答案...
我依然感受到的是你还是一样的爱我宠我包容我...
但是为什么我终是觉得有那么一丁点的不一样呢?
是我要求的越来越过分了吗?
又或者我们根本不应该每天每天都见面....
这样至少不会有类似这样的事情发生在我们两人的身上!!
到底是他压力大?
我想多了还是我们真的真的有问题?
也许我应该和他谈谈吧!!省得自己在这里胡思乱想的...
可是我却不想拿这些问题来烦他!!
除此之外,我真的很beh tahan我自己!!
我每次都会在无意中伤害到了他...
无论是mentally 还是physically的...
再一次的,我觉得自己真的很粗鲁!!
原本在打情骂俏的两个人,也可以变得是吵架收场的...
原因无它,真的很简单...
那就是我又伤害到他了!!
拍拖真的很麻烦!!要想这个又那个的...
有时单身真的比有爱人的人来的好!!
可是有个人关心你却是一件很开心很满足的一件事...
唉.........

Thursday, September 23, 2010

我只想说说

阔别四年的单身生活,在9月19日2010年....
我拍拖了!!!
对象是我以前中学的朋友...
为什么我们会在一起的呢?
其实我身边的朋友们问了我很多遍...
感觉的东西是很难讲的!!
要来的时候,挡也挡不住啊!!!

可是在此刻,我的心情却不是很好!!是因为我太久没拍拖的关系吗?
导致我完全忘记了拍拖时是应该怎么样的....
因为在这几天,我似乎把我和凯(我男友)之间甜蜜的事情搞砸了...
原本开开心心的两个人却因为我的语言上或行动上而弄到大家不愉快....
唉....一句话,我笨咯!!!

每次都想做好自己...虽然说我是不会为任何人而改变自己!!
但是...为什么我总是觉得自己每次都做错或说错话呢?
凯每次都能够分析出我是在发脾气还是想睡觉....
可是为什么我却不能够分出他是在不开心还是别的呢?
是我少根经还是什么啊?

凯是很迁就我....可是我觉得真的没那个必要!!
明明他是没错的为什么要说是自己错呢?
这样会弄到我觉得自己真的很无理取闹...
甚至觉得自己很幼稚无聊!!

其实心里总是在想....
是否我和他发展的太快了?
是否我们还没真正的了解对方就开始恋情而导致今天问题的所在?
可是等到太了解对方才在一起,我本人就觉得没意思了...
唉.....
希望我和他的问题可以尽快地改善....

Friday, September 3, 2010

八月的暑假

原以为在这个暑假,会很没意思外加无聊的...
没想到是充满了欢喜的噢!!就因为是这样,所以好想要在这里说两句了....^^

话说在这个暑假是要和college朋友们出去玩的!!
就是因为budget的关系,所以大家就说要去sunway lagoon而已咯!!
可是到最后,大家都放飞机了啦...
没办法咯,就想说平平淡淡的过这个暑假好了!!

之后就有part-time job,跟弟弟出差到JOHOR做工咯..
既然到哪里,当然顺便去新加坡咯!!!这个行程是和丽丽一起的...
原本以为就是简单的一个旅程,可是就认识了几个新朋友...
他们可以算是同事啦因为都一起工作...
分别就他们是我们客户的员工咯!!!

有两个新朋友是台湾来的...他们到这里是因为internship啦!!
可惜,在这个星期五他们就要回台湾了...
他们是很可爱搞笑的朋友....而且很爱演!!!
就因为他们两个,我的暑假就变得很好玩开心了....^^
之后就一起去新加坡咯!!他们真的让我们在哪里没完形象了...
因为我们都是在大笑的!!!
就因为大家都很投缘的关系,所以回到KL都还有出去咯....

就在昨天,我,丽丽和munping就带他们到我们马来西亚的夜市逛逛咯!!
他们都说我们夜市卖的东西都好便宜噢....
可是,有吗?好像不觉得耶!!
当然,我们也去i-city了...他们要照相嘛,当然去美丽的景点咯!!
话说,只用我的手机和两部相机都已经有大约400多张照片了....=)
还没加那两位台湾朋友的相机噢!!
搞笑的是....很他们相处了几天,我和丽丽的口音有点像台湾音了...
而台湾朋友的口音却像我们马来西亚的!!
真的很好笑哦....>.<

我很高兴可以认识到台湾的朋友因为改天到哪里至少还有个照应嘛.....=)
希望还可以认识不同国籍的朋友!!
虽然大学有不同国籍的朋友...可是很抱歉啦,大多数都是黑人!!
所以,杀了我吧!!!
对了,严重声明....我可没有歧视黑人噢!!!
只是有点害怕他们因为他们有'强劲的臂弯'....
怪恐怖的咧!!

*想看我暑假照的照片,就到我的面子书看看吧!!*